it's the inside that counts.

Half term should be a time for relaxing without making the effort you have to in your daily routine. So why is it that every time I catch a glimpse in the mirror of myself I can't see the person that's inside, and instead see this ugly girl? There is no pressure in the confines of my own home, no one is here to judge me on whether the foundation I wear is flawless or if my hair is in an immaculate condition - I didn't see how it was possible to feel so inadequate when you are surrounded by no one but your own mind and it's imagination. But then I realised something that I hadn't seen before, the media never turns off, nor does your memory. And so even if you're completely on your own there will always be the time replaying in your head when that the person from two weeks/months/years ago laughed at you because you looked funny - whether you're fully aware or if it is just a subconscious thought.

Some girls are strong enough to shrug those thoughts off and not let them get to them (if you are one of those then I wish to be more like you). Weeks ago, I would have let these thoughts destroy me until I did things I am not proud of admitting to. I can say that I feel stronger now and that I am more able to 'shrug' these feelings off a little bit and just rise above it as much as possible. SO, I decided that I should take the bull by the horns and teach myself that perfection on the outside of the body doesn't last - it can come off with a face-wipe, dismantle with age - whereas the perfection inside a person can be maintained regardless of the outer shell. Some of the most beautiful people I have meant haven't been conventionally "pretty" - I hope that I can learn from people like these and accept that life is life and that we were not created to be perfect, everyone is different, everyone has perfections and everyone has flaws.