University

Before I started University I naively believed that I would find the massive adjustment “easy” and fit in straight away. Truth is, like everything in life – it just takes time. In my first few days I was ready to get my Mum to come and pick me up and be the girl who couldn’t hack it and dropped out. Even though I was a complete emotional wreck for the first couple of days, it did calm down. Of course there are days when I wish I was at home, in my own bed and just not having to worry about the “grown up things” (washing, money, food etc), everyone has to grow up at some point though. As much as we might want to, we cannot live in our parent’s pockets for the entirety of our lives.

I was expecting to go out every night during my first week of University – I went out once and had a panic attack and I’ve not been out since. But that is fine and I am happy with my decision. You can’t pressure yourself to do something that you’re not willing to – especially when you’re in a new environment with people that you’ve never met before. I was so lucky that my flat mates are so understanding and lovely – 6 girls and we all get on (#shocker). They accept that I don’t want to go out every night and they don’t judge me or try to force me in to going out. Instead they ask if I want to go out, and when I say that I don’t – they don’t make me feel like I’m missing out. Sometimes it obviously got a bit lonely and what-not but I could just watch things on my laptop and talk to my friends and family online and it was like I wasn’t even away. It was better than me going out and not feeling comfortable.

I’ve also not had any proper lectures yet – my first ones start tomorrow. I wish that I could’ve been kept busy by my modules but it’s given me the time I need to adjust. I’ve been able to see my Mum, Dad and my grandparents. Now I feel like I don’t need them around all the time and that is such a relief for all of us because it means I’m finally settling in to my new surroundings. I’m ready to start learning now – I can’t wait to get my teeth in to something that I’m so passionate about.

But now it’s nearly midnight and my lecture is at 10.15 in a room I haven’t got a clue where. So I guess it’s my cue to go to sleep and mentally prepare myself for what’s about to come at me for the next three years of my course.