Chapters

It's crazy scary to think that in less than a month I'll have finished university - like totally finished uni forever. Education will be over. I've learned so much in these past three years, not just educationally, but about myself more generally. This past year has been the absolute best year of my life and I'm actually really sad to think that I'll be moving on from this place and in to the real world. I'm so excited for what the future holds for me. I'm not naive, I know that it's going to be really hard to find a job, and carve a life for myself. But in this past year I've learned so many new things about myself and I really have faith in my abilities. If we're lucky, life is a long road ahead of us, and I cannot wait to see what happens.

I'm twenty-two, and I started this blog when I was sixteen or seventeen. Even just looking back on my first few posts I can see just how much I have changed and grown; it makes me excited for the future and what changes can come. I think I've posted quite a few reflective posts on my time here, but I think this is the one where shit really gets real.

I cannot tell you how excited I am to see where I'll end up. The world is kind of my oyster right now, and I know that it'll take time. But I'm ready to dive in to the deep end, and just see what happens. It's time for another chapter to begin. But, until then, I still have a few weeks to make the most of the most carefree time of my life. I'm EXCITED!

Moving on, growing up and life is still going on.

So last time we spoke I think I was just coming to the end of my A-Levels – they’re all done now and I’m currently waiting on the results which come out on Thursday. I am scared, but for once I kind of believe in myself and all that I have worked for, so I’m just praying that it all pays off and that I get in to university.

Ah university. My feelings about going to university tend to fluctuate a lot; from being excited to down-right petrified. It’s going to be so strange to move on from my cosy life in a little town filled with family and memories, to a new city where I have endless capacities of new memories, friends and ultimately a life to build for myself. I don’t have a “plan B” which only intensifies my worry but I think it is about time that I actually start to believe in myself and reap the rewards from my hard work.

I never thought that I would feel so calm about leaving college, but I guess it won’t feel real until they all go back for another year and I start moving in to my halls. It will probably hit me and I’ll be a bit dumbstruck. I spent three life-changing years there and I wouldn’t have altered a single thing or had it any other way. It’s not so much the building, although I knew it offered me security, it’s more so the people of whom I am still very much in contact with and hope to be for a very long time. After-all, these amazing people have helped me grow and develop in to the Jemma that I am now.

Regardless of Thursday’s outcome, life will still very much be moving onwards, and either way I will still be starting the next journey of my life. I do not know the direction in which my life will go, and I kind of like it that way.